tick tock tick tock

Only one more sleep until the New Year and what a year it has been for not only me, but for many Souls out there.

My writing has taken a back seat for the past few months as I went out and got a real JOB in a real office which, as you can imagine, has been taking up a whole whack of time but, shock of shocks, I am truly enjoying it. Quiet office - in fact there are lots of days when I am here relatively on my own. Beautiful view of the North Shore mountains, bright and airy and within walking distance of my home. All in all a pretty good fit for me at this time in my life.

And this time has been quite interesting. All of that quiet, alone time got me delving deeper and deeper into me and how I have been relating, not only to others, but to myself for so many years. I have come to the realization that I allowed myself to be guided by others and my concern for how THEY looked at my life without allowing ME to look at my life through a clear lens. And my lens has been rather cloudy of late.

I have been looking at me as a friend, a parent, a lover, a source of inspiration to others and have come to pretty intense realizations about my life up to this point and how it has all brought me to this very special time in my life.

It is now time to stand up for myself, speak my truth - regardless as to whether it makes others uncomfortable - and let the chips fall where they may. I have always tried to push my uncomfortable feelings down with the hope that I could somehow "fix" everything on my own and I now know that it is NOT all up to me. It takes others input and desire for change for things to truly change or shift into the best possible place for one and all.

And that is what I am trying to do. Of course, it means that there are some in my realm who are rather annoyed with me, rather leary of speaking their truth from their hearts even if their truth could potentially be hurtful (in their minds) to me. Honesty, truth and free expression is what I desire.

I can only do what I can do and allow others to do what they can.

Wishing you all blessings and a new year of love, joy and infinite abundance on all levels.

Namaste