Awareness through Solitude

Is anyone else out there feeling the affects of the planetary alignments of late? I know that I have been very affected by this past Mercury retrograde and, now it appears, with the coming Full Moon tomorrow night. I felt like I had been hit by a Mack truck yesterday and just couldn't keep my eyes open. Had all these potential plans with others but just wanted to rest and be quiet. Even turned off the phone and hunkered down for a night of solitude.

I have been noticing that a lot too.........the need for solitude. Was talking with someone yesterday and sharing that in the past I would get all antsy and out of sorts when spending too much time on my own, however, that way of being has shifted lately. There does not seem to be that incessant NEED to be busy and distracted by the energies of others. In fact, that just might be it........no longer wanting to be distracted by others, even those whose energies I enjoy.

When I look back on my old way of interacting with others, I now realize that I WAS distracting myself from ME. This distraction would work for a while and then, at the end of the day, in the quiet of the night, I would be alone and just with me. And I was not all that enamored with me before which is a huge admission on my part. Now though, I am feeling the intense desire to spend time with me and allow all of me full reign with no distractions to hinder my own personal growth.

This does not mean that I won't be spending time with others because that would be foolish. I am a very social being but I am committed now to spending time with others that enhance my existence, not those who are pulling at my energetic strings to make THEIR lives better as I used to think that I needed others to make MY life feel better. This also doesn't mean that I am going to be pushing others away, just that I am now willing to be patient with me and honour how my energy flows when in the energy of others. I do not need them in my life - I am choosing to embrace their energies as we both flow forward in the divine stream of things.

Ah life and all its myriad lessons. There is certainly not a day that goes by without some sort of lesson......some aha moment where we can go........hey, this feels different, looks different, IS different. I AM different and that is exactly what I need to embrace.

Unique Beings unite as this stream of life is speeding up.

Namaste